>> Wednesday, August 30, 2006
8/30/2006 11:43:00 PM
i try hard not to dislike school.
seriously, i do. i try not to think abt how much effort it takes to get my butt off the bed and out of the house. and when i do get out of the house, i try not to think abt how i have to travel 1.5hrs each way. and then when i am in school, i try to think of not escaping. yikes.
but then, have u ever wondered what it really means to go to school? how it will actually affect ur life? i think school's meant to train my hardiness, to kick my butt into discipline.
if not, how to work towards master's in speech pathology? haha. yes yes, i am trying to get there. now that it's here in singapore and i can do honours, why not?
after all, i've been in this phase of life long enough, might as well continue. but that'd be after my teaching stint of course. IF it can be called a stint anyway. haha.
preaching was scary. to be able to see everyone and what they actually (can) do while i stand up there, i felt so.. weird. it's really like, u dont know how it feels until u experience it. ask ernie, she can really tell u all abt it. heh. but seriously, at the end of the whole thing, i just felt like i didn't do enough for God, like i failed to capture what He really wanted me to say. or at least tt's what i think. P.Chad said it's normal to feel like u didn't say all tt u really wanted to say. -shrug- but if it is, then why does it feel so disturbing?
